Growing Pains

Growing up requires quite a bit of stretching...and in that stretching comes quite a bit of discomfort. I am currently experiencing some not-so-pleasant growing pains myself. I feel as though the people I thought would always be there are no longer there for me. It's not just my imagination, either. It's real. And it reminds me that in this life, there is no constant but Christ. He never leaves or forsakes, but unfortunately, people do. It's a sad fact of life. So in this fact, I am having a tough time. But God is showing me, bit by tiny bit, who I am in him - no frills, no friends, no extra stuff - just me and him.

It's tough. It becomes harder as I press on, too. But I've also found a new sense of boldness. Without a core group of friends to hold on to, I am learning to meet new people and see value in new relationships. So that has bee fun.

Obviously, I miss the people I find myself without of late. It's been one of the hardest things I've ever been through, and it's by no means over. I find myself in the midst of a shaking. The good thing about being shaken, however, is that it brings me to my knees - it breaks me - and the only thing left standing is God.